
Home is weird. Not in a bad way, just in a… weird way. Profound, I know.
Last year was crazy (in a good way), and full of random global adventures and new people and kind of scary moments, but in all that it was amazing. Because of that, even. It’s kind of hard to go from that to “normal”. I mean, there’s still excitement in the everyday, but it’s different. And I think a big part of it is the people.
I was thinking about it this morning, and just the overwhelming amount of times that I was so blessed to be where I was and have what I had. And even the abundance of times where God’s timing was perfect. I mean, it always is, but sometimes I think I don’t really notice it until after. And then I’m blown away and wonder how I missed it.
Like with my living situation last year. Twice, how the timing was perfect. How I seemed to find sources of income on nearly the exact day I needed it. How I was around the perfect set of people for where I was at the time, and how those people were more of a family to me than I ever expected. And so many other things.
I know all that had a monumental part in my personal growth this past year, and if nothing else, demonstrated the reality of faith. But the thing is, I feel like I’m missing something now. I mean, I know I’ve only been back home for a month or so, and I’m sure it’s where I’m supposed to be for this season at least, but I think I’m too focused on finding the same level of excitement as Belfast, I’m maybe missing the point of it.
One of my favourite books is by David Crowder, and the title kind of explains it – “Finding God in Sunsets and Sushi”. It’s like, I don’t need to be galavanting through Europe to feel some sense of “life”. I want to find beauty in everything. Excitement in the mundane stuff. Like, the guy who works at this coffee shop on Fridays makes the best Iced Caramel Americanos. That’s genuinely exciting, you know?
Anyway, I think I’ve been listening to too much Ludovico Einaudi (read: too contemplative, ha). I genuinely am excited to see what God has in store for me this year. I’m sure it’ll be amazing. But I will always miss Belfast.